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Further Seems Forever
Less than special
So here is what I am thinking. I am not really ready for all of this. This life that I lead. Its very surreal. I keep thinking that the past year or so have just been a very odd dream, or nightmare, that I will wake up from. But I haven't as of yet figured out what I have to do to wake up. Sometimes I really wish that I could go back in time. I wish I could travel back to a different time, and know everything that I know now. I would really change things. But then the choice is, after over coming the whole physics thing, would be when. 5 years ago, 3 years ago, 6 months ago? Before Erika, Before Pooh Bear, or before this horrible lifestyle change? That would be a touch call. But knowing what I think I know, being the person that I am now I would go back to the summer of 2000. Me and Pooh Bears first summer. To quote the Wu Tang clan \”that was my favorite shit.\” heheh that was me trying to be funny. Anyway here are my reasons.

Erika is a great chick. Me and her just were too young. It was too much. But Pooh Bear and I fit so well. She made me realize that there are so many simple things in life. There is so much one person can feel, she opened me up to just be myself. I will never forget the picnics. that was the best time of my life. Anyway, it is rainy out. Time to live a John Cusack movie.