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Unsteady
Where to start….
Every since I went home to Elmira, I have been in a very very good mood. Everything seems to be looking up. Since I have no car, I started walking a lot. I also started taking multi vitamins every morning, and I smoke a little less. I feel freaking great. Its odd, you don't know how badly out of shape you can get by doing absolutely nothing for year hehehe. I really do feel happy, though. I haven't felt this good in years. When I walk to school, I rock out and read. I just finished Bridget Jone's Diary. It was a fairly good book. I am getting to like British humor. I have to read a bunch of these kind of novels for my liberal arts class. I have been thinking about love and hate a lot this past year. And this class, called Love, Hate, and Adultery in the American Novel. Its a very interesting class. I can now rationalize my incredible obsession with spending all my time questioning love and lust. Which brings me to my next point. I am obsessed with love. I want so badly to love and to be loved that it consumes my entire life force these days. I can't have that. I would lose myself in someone so easily, and then everything that I have worked for would be in jeopardy. I can't have that. I can't be \”that guy\”. So, against my wants, I separate my self from any potential drama. I hope I don't regret. But I already miss you.

I don't have much more to say right now. Thats a first.