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Maniac Street Preachers Its been awhile since I posted. Couple of reasons behind that. One is that I have been super busy during and after work. The other is that I have been pretty upset this whole week, and didn't want to upset people by posting my feelings here. Its kind of a bummer that people read this and get made at me for what I post here. I mean its not like many of the feeling I have are like that all the time. But when I upset, I come here and write down everything that is bothering me. Everything that I have been thinking, which usually include unpleasant things.
But anyway on with the bitching. So this week has been one failure after another. With the shit that Monkey Butter and I are going through, a few new twists have arouse. Its seems that someone, who I consider a friend, wants more that this. The tricky part here is that she has been telling me about this guy she likes for a few weeks now, and how she should not like him. This guy is me. I don't want to have to deal with that. Now it's a bit uncomfortable to talk to this girl' I just feel like I let her down cause its not going to happen the way she wants it. I mean, I feel like a bastard cause I think I hurt her. But we all have to learn to deal so'.
Randomly Monday night, the Wang Gypsy messaged me, at like 2 in the morning wanting to talk. I was either sleeping or not at my computer so I did not get the message until after she left, and she has not been on since. She hasn't started a conversation with me since July. Now I am worried about her. A lot. I want to call her, but I don't want to get all upset again. Cause she blew me off pretty bad and that sucked. But I still care a great deal for her. I hope I hear from her soon.

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All in all, I have been depressed and sad this week and could really use a hug. That's why I am going drinking tonight